Thursday, July 31, 2014

Working With Others

     "Practical experience shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics. It works when other activities fail. This is our twelfth suggestion: Carry this message to other alcoholics! You can help when no one else can. You can secure their confidence when others fail. Remember they are very ill.
     Life will take on new meaning. To watch people recover, to see them help others, to watch loneliness vanish, to see a fellowship grow up about you, to have a host of friends, this is an experience you must not miss." - Alcoholics Anonymous, p.89

     If there is one thing in this program that will lift you up and set you straight without fail, it is indeed working intensively with other alcoholics or addicts, and by working intensively, I mean procuring an untreated addict and taking them through the Twelve Steps as they are laid out in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. As the book states above, this is something you do not want to miss.

     Trust me, it is usually a bitter failure to chase people around, but hey, if that's what you need to do, do it. This is the silver bullet of the Steps. When all else fails, GO WORK WITH OTHERS. It will heal you. It is like injecting spiritual medicine. Let me tell you, you can either inject vivitrol or suboxone or methadone, or you can inject the spiritual medicine of helping others. You can inject science or you can inject God. You can inject poison or you can inject love. The choice is yours.

     If you spend all of your free time taking other addicts through this process, you will not fail. Conversely, if you waste your time getting jammed on methadone, you won't make it. Nobody has ever truly recovered without giving of themselves, and specifically, without helping other addicts recover.

     Furthermore, if we fail to equip our sponsee with the proper tools and lay down the path to spiritual freedom, there is no point in sponsoring anyone. Today, the millions of AA goers and our communist friends in Hollywood have turned AA into a cliche' - the meeting room, the sad story, the sobriety chip, and the sponsor who gabs away on the phone and drags his sponsee to a meeting after confidently delivering the only advice he has: "You need a meeting, pal."

     None of this has anything to do with the original program of spiritual action that is Alcoholics Anonymous. The Twelve Step process is a mind-blowing and life-changing process if done thoroughly and fearlessly, but today sponsorship is a joke. If someone approaches you in AA or NA and they have not taken steps and recovered themselves, they have no business sponsoring anyone and you will be led down a road to nowhere. In fact, they may very well help to facilitate your relapse and possible death, as they have not shown you the solution or enabled you to find God.

God, please bring me the opportunity to help others...

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Beyond Addiction or Beyond Bullshit?

     I must admit that the subtitle, 'How Science and Kindness Help People Change' to Beyond Addiction is quite clever, despite the fact that it reeks of PhD arrogance. This is such well-doctored propaganda that it actually hurts my head, and there should be little doubt that this statement has nothing to do with reality and more to do with, who knows, self-promotion, career-promotion, industry-promotion, status quo-promotion (under the guise, of course, of being new and novel, which is amusing to say the least). But before you click off, you wanna hear some propaganda?

     From Beyond Addiction, pp.5-6: "Substance problems are complex and multi-determined (totally false), often determined by underlying psychiatric disorders (false) such as depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, or attention deficit disorders (false) that require specialized attention over and beyond just treating the substance problem (lie). In other words, good treatment often includes psychiatric care (false, but obviously they'd say that to pump meds and because their jobs and salaries are dependent on your belief in the quack science of psychiatry), which has historically been overlooked or even discouraged in some drug and alcohol treatment settings (clear slight towards spiritual programs).
     Science has also given us a better understanding or the brain's role in substance use and compulsive behaviors (completely false). With that science, there are medications that reduce cravings and compulsivity (false), block drug effects (partially false), ease withdrawal (true), and treat underlying issues (completely false)."

     From The Doctor's Opinion, Alcoholics Anonymous p. xxix (which every parent or spouse must absolutely read): "Faced with this problem, if a doctor is honest with himself, he must sometimes feel his own inadequacy. Although he gives all that is in him, it often is not enough. One feels that something more than human power is needed to produce the essential psychic change. Though the aggregate of recoveries resulting from psychiatric effort is considerable, we physicians must admit we have made little impression upon the problem as a whole. Many types do not respond to the ordinary psychological approach."

     Obviously this sort of professional humility is lost on these guys.
     I'll admit that I couldn't finish the entire book because the nauseousness was becoming unbearable, as the authors seem to be trying to inject a good dose of atheism into the reader. What is clear is that they want God out of the equation entirely, and the obvious rejection of God calls into question the very nature of the their character, let alone the quality of their spiritual health. There doesn't appear to be a single mention of God or spiritual anything throughout the entire book or index, which is unconscionable when attempting to engage in the education of addiction treatment.

     Yet they are more than willing to pump "pharmacotherapies" (another oxymoron) and cognitive behvaioral therapy, two areas of treatment that are both proven to be abject failures in treating chronic drug addicts or hopeless alcoholics. Sorry, but I just don't see where these people get off. I wasn't going to waste my time on this, but it's too important given the publicity this book has received, especially when you consider how misguided it is. Just the title is almost laughable, if it wasn't so annoying, given the lack of substance within.

     Does anybody else find it sort of amusing how they try to coin a new and original approach to addiction by calling it the CRAFT method, when said 'groundbreaking' method is just being nice to your kid and taking care of yourself, mixed with other common knowledge. The rest of it is just the same old conventional stuff that fails to effect any sort of real and lasting change. Maybe I'm just a dick, but I don't think telling parents not to scream at an addict is worthy of critical acclaim. My two year-old says that every time I get in the car. "No scream, dadda. No mad, dadda." I don't know much, but I do know this is very self-seeking stuff and trust me, these guys love the attention and the recognition.

     I actually find what I do to be considerably more kind than beating around the bush and hurling empty platitudes and frothy emotional appeal at some addict who is clearly ill and is all too willing to tell you EXACTLY what you want to hear in order to keep using the way they want. Real kindness and real love is not allowing an addict to continue lying to themselves... and then showing them a solution that actually works. Make no mistake that the lies an addict tells himself are the primary ingredients of a lethal overdose.

    At any rate, right off the bat the authors are eager to criticize the Twelve Step process, using indirect slights, thus exhibiting a non-existent understanding of the pure wisdom contained within the Big Book.

     "However, you're probably more familiar with the popular notions of intractable character defects and progressive, chronic disease. There's widespread pessimism about the possibility of real change." -Beyond Addiction, p.4 

     If you read this and didn't know what the Steps really were, you'd be absorbing pompous lies about a program that can elicit miracles. Nowhere in the Big Book does it say that our character defects are intractable. In fact, quite the opposite. The steps are designed to change and rid us of character defects and is 'beyond' optimistic about full recovery and the achievement of inner peace, strength and tremendous success in life.

     The progressive, chronic aspect of our illness relates to the physical component of addiction, not mental, as made crystal clear in the Big Book, and is a GOOD thing as it keep addicts from using! Telling an addict that someday he may be able to use moderately again is not only ignorant but it is insane. Abstinence is the only option for any true alcoholic or drug addict. The Big Book also makes it crystal clear that we can indeed recover from what truly ails us mentally and spiritually and live a life of pure freedom, contentment and serenity.

     Guess what? Science and kindness do NOT change addicts. Guess what's going to happen when you're cooking us dinner and humming kumbaya as you stir the chicken madeira? We're going to be in the other room robbing you and patting ourselves on the back for so cleverly manipulating and deceiving the shit out of you, once again.

     Compassion doesn't work for drug addicts, so don't waste your time. Addicts need to be shredded and humbled beyond belief... and then built back together one spiritual brick at a time.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Think Right, Act Right

     My recovery is built on the foundation of the truth of cause and effect. I've tried, though admittedly without much eloquence, to illuminate this truth in previous posts like Karma or Sartre. I should have just sifted through the endless self-help books on my shelf until I found James Allen, author of, As A Man Thinketh. Needless to say, I have a revised version entitled, As You Think, which I strongly recommend. To drive home the fact that cause & effect is a universal law and crosses all realms of life whether physical, mental or spiritual, we must quote Allen extensively.

From 'Thought & Character':
     "What we are was designed and built by our own thoughts in our minds. If we nurture ignorant or evil thoughts, pain will soon follow. If our thoughts are healthy and beneficial, joy will follow us as surely as our shadows follow us on a sunny day."

     Naturally, an addict's mind is so demented that while Allen suggests that right thought begets right action, which is true, we may also simply begin to act right, and our minds will follow, healing and becoming purer. As the mind and body are one, we must be able to rely on some reciprocity. 

     "A man or woman is a growth by law, not a creation by artifice, and such cause-and-effect is as absolute and undeviating in the hidden realm of thought as in the world of visible and material things. A noble and Godlike character is not a thing of favor or chance, but is the natural result of continued effort in right thinking, the effect of long-cherished association with Godlike thoughts."

     Beautiful. Reminds me of Sartre's assertion that our 'existence precedes our essence' - that we make ourselves who we are (by our thoughts and actions, by the choices we make). We have no one to blame for who and what we've become but ourselves. God is there for us if we reach for Him with everything we have and if we work hard. Addicts need to pound this truth into their heads until they can think no other way.

Allen drills it home for us:
     "We are made or unmade by ourselves; in the armory of thought we forge the weapons we use to destroy ourselves, and we also fashion the tools we use to build ourselves heavenly mansions of joy and strength and peace... 
     Good thoughts and actions can never produce bad results; bad thoughts and actions can never produce good results...
     Suffering is always the effect of wrong thought in some direction. It is an indication that we are out of harmony with ourselves, with the law of our being." 

     With addiction, we must often parallel Allen's thoughts on thought with action, for the addict simply acts without even thinking. If we are doing the wrong thing without a preceding thought, we are off the rails, so to speak. This is why I counter CBT for the addict with ACTION THERAPY - just start doing the right thing, for right action alone will also begin to build us "mansions of joy and strength and peace."

Quotes from:
As You Think
by James Allen
(revised and updated by Marc Allen)

God, help me to think right, speak right and act right, that I may be in harmony with You and Others...

Sunday, July 27, 2014

"Miracle Drug" is an Oxymoron

     Sorry, but the term "miracle drug" is an oxymoron when it comes to treating drug addiction. Drugs, including methadone, suboxone, ibogaine, LSD and other such garbage, are incompatible with miracles, and thus 'miracle' shouldn't be in the same sentence as 'drug', as miracles only occur in the absence of drugs. I hate to burst your bubble, but based on the nature of miracles, that is just the truth as we know it. But don't worry because this is great news!

     Why, Charlie? How could that possibly be great news?! 

     Because if we are forced to look at ourselves scathingly, become accountable, put our spiritual growth above all else, and give everything that we have within us towards changing, maturing, serving, recovering and becoming other-centered, then we are FAR better people than the sober addict who remains lost in self-absorption and depression, unable to stop thinking about himself and his feelings for but a moment. Sober addicts are still drowning in the spiritual poisons of self-seeking, selfishness, dishonesty and fear. They are empty and without purpose.

     As I've said before, drugs and alcohol are truly the least of our problems. Achieving physical sobriety is about .01% of the ballgame. As the Big Book teaches us, "We feel that elimination of our drinking is but a beginning. A much more important demonstration of our principles lies before us in our respective homes, occupations and affairs." (Alcoholics Anonymous, p.19)

     So please, have a look at this older post, Ways of Telling if Your Addict is Recoveredwhich is brief, and answer these questions for yourself or for your addict. If you get any "no's", than you shouldn't trust anything an addict says or does. We are by far the most manipulative people on earth. In fact, the way in which we can lie and deceive could be considered brilliant if it wasn't so destructive, and is certainly on par with the just about everyone in the current administration, the congress, the senate, the media, the federal reserve, and their criminal primary dealers.

     At any rate, according to the primary search result on google, a miracle refers to "a surprising and welcome event that is not explicable by natural or scientific laws and is therefore considered to be the work of divine agency." Taken as such, it isn't possible for drugs to have any hand in producing a miracle, as miracles are reserved for the work of God. Inducing changes with a drug is an act of self-will whereas miracles are performed by God and God alone.

     So to state the obvious, when it comes to addiction and a loss of power, drugs and drug use of any sort have nothing to do with God or His will. Does this not make sense?

Also see: Courage or Cowardice & Are You Free?

God, please show me Your will for me and give me the power to carry it out...

Friday, July 25, 2014


     First of all, and this may be somewhat irrelevant, but regarding other types of drugs as a solution to drug addiction, more drugs don't fix a drug problem just like more debt doesn't fix a debt problem, obviously. Mood-altering drugs, regardless of class, are the antithesis of the spiritual life. Why is common sense is so lost on us when it comes to addiction and recovery? To make an insane drug addict sane again requires quite the opposite of dissociating from reality.


     It really matters nothing what effect Ibogaine or any other drug may have on your neurochemistry because no drug in history has ever been able to magically restore a man to sanity and lift his obsession to use drugs. Neither has science ever been able to restore a man's body, enabling him to use normally. Furthermore, psychedelics don't make you a better person. They cannot restore a person morally and spiritually. Only hard work and consistent right action can do that. And I suspect science and drugs will never solve this one. We are supposed to work for our recovery, especially when you consider how much we have taken.

     Even if you receive some temporary clarity and the novelty of that keeps you sober for a while, trust me, it is only a matter of time before your old self smacks you back in the face. It is like building a house on sand. If your foundation hasn't been laid solid through hard work and sacrifice, your house of cards will blow over when life challenges you and the going gets rough. Sure ibogaine may detox you properly, but then what? Nothing will stop you from wanting to get high once you're clean... or rather, nothing will stop the mental obsession from randomly smacking you in the face. The fact is that chemical intervention has never made an insane man sane again. Let's elaborate.

     Regarding withdrawal. Withdrawal and pain are GOOD for opiate addicts. We do it to ourselves and we should suffer. This is exactly the problem with mainstream treatment. If you make us comfortable, we have nothing to fear by relapsing again. Does anyone not see the moral the moral hazard? Furthermore, is "wiping the receptors" and restoring the tolerance of an opiate addict really what you want to do? Guess what I'm gonna do when I get home? I'm gonna buy a bag and jammed our of my fucking skull. Lol. Kidding aside, detox is good and necessary, but a man also needs to be restored to sanity, and such a task requires hard work and God.

     Another issue I take is this assertion that you somehow discover all the reasons why you started using while you're touring la-la land. Dead giveaway. Why? Because aside from thinking that a drug-induced hallucination has anything to do with authentic insight and self-awareness, the truth is that there is no reason why alcoholics drink and addicts use. Reasons are just clever excuses to drink and use they way we want to drink and use.

     Another claim I continue to read on various forums and just can't fathom is that it works for life... a claim that apparently can be made before the life claiming it has been completed. Lol. Trust me, you don't trip out once on psychedelics to grow up into a responsible adult. Just the sound of that is so absurd and infantile, but hey, I guess stranger things have happened. 

      Easier, softer ways don't fundamentally change who we are, lift our obsession, restore us to sanity or instill a moral compass. We become better people through consistent right action, day after day, year after year. And since we most certainly have a moral/spiritual problem, the idea of tripping out to change who we are is lost on me, but hey, what the heck do I know?

     Look, I'll happily admit I'm not some Ibogaine expert, but generally speaking, it sounds like a good thing and helps serious opiate addicts detox properly and perhaps gain some insight. The issue I have with the psychedelic community is the lack of action. Since when does simply tripping balls make you a better person?

      Bottom line: I've personally never seen psychedelics fix a drug addict, but hey, if for some reason it works, than that's wonderful and super duper. Just remember to get off the pink cloud and go help your mom. Also remember that if you go down this road, you are little better for it (yet) and still remain in a rather precarious position as you have still done zero work on yourself... so watch out for the mental obsession when it hits you one day like a ton of bricks.

     Finally, the online Ibogaine shills and trolls may want to tone it down, as your mentally disturbed demeanor is giving your miracle drug a bad reputation. One of the more ridiculous things I've heard is the nonsense I just suffered on some poor mother's site. Trust me, it would have given you a migraine. These two insane and virtually incoherent Ibogaine pumpers just manically accosted this woman's blog in perfect troll form. They were aggressive, desperate, and abusive.

     Two of the more frightening comments were something like, "I'm not in this for the money, I'm just saving addicts' lives" and "Fine, let your kid die if you want." Gee, how humble. That sort of grandiose vitriol should have you running. I read financial blogs frequently and there are always paid shills incessantly pumping or bashing some stock, and trust me, these two lunatics sounded just like them. They were paid pumpers.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Sorry Folks, We Aren't Sad Little Children

Sure me might be sad, but we're also pretty selfish... oh, and by the way, everybody's sad. Nothing too novel about that. 

     All stereotypes are stereotypes because there is some truth to them, otherwise stereotypes wouldn't exist. Do you think it's a stereotype that addicts are selfish? Sure. And isn't that stereotype true? Obviously. So the fact that we attach a stigma to addiction means there is probably a good reason to attach it, like perhaps the fact that it's wrong? We attach a stigma to things that in our hearts, minds and guts just don't feel right. There is nothing normal about a drug addict wasting away after living selfishly and causing pain to so many. Addiction is twisted, so of course there is a stigma attached to it. There should be!!! And there are a million good reasons to do so.

     I am a full blown drug addict. I wasted 15 years drinking and using and let me tell you that the last thing I want in this world is to be let off the hook. "My disease" didn't steal those years from me. I stole them from myself. I wasted 15 years of my life. And I wasted them because I wanted to. I wanted to use. Addicts want to use. In fact, addicts LOVE to use. This you need to understand.     

     Many parents or spouses try to relieve their addict of responsibility because addiction is a disease (illness really, but whatever). Okay sure, it's a disease but it's a disease we give to ourselves. Nobody is born an addict, nor do we 'catch it in the air'. Also, if you blame addiction on our DNA, then you're essentially blaming yourself. Trust me, you didn't do it, so don't blame yourself. ANYBODY can become an addict by selfishly using too much, so of course we should be treated differently!

     Everybody knows it's wrong to use. What, are we now saying it's not wrong to use drugs???

     The rationalization is that this disease is trapping the child. What a convenient delusion that there is this sad little person inside struggling and aching from so much pain. Sure some of us are sad, but millions of non-addicts are just as sad. Everybody's sad. And sure we are all different, but the truth is that I wasn't some desperate little child. Let me tell you what my deal was in plain English:


     That's all.

     Sure I was spiritually sick, but who isn't? Fine, some of us aren't totally fucked, but the point is that addicts are totally different than those sick beyond their control. We addicts are not sick beyond our control. We mutated ourselves into addicts by drinking and using over and over again until we broke our bodies. Anybody can become an addict, but most people don't because they refrain from drinking and using like an absolute glutton. They care about doing the right thing. The have some semblance of a moral compass and a soul that is in tact.

     It is also in our control to get better because there is a solution. Unfortunately, many addicts don't employ this solution because it actually involves work. That's right, most of us don't get better because we refuse to do the hard work consistently. Imagine that. We refuse to feel any discomfort whatsoever. We refuse to live life on life's terms.

     So even though we break our bodies and minds and acquire this disease, I don't understand why we should get off so easily, why we should be so tightly embraced and showered with love? Let me tell you something. The people who showered me with love nearly killed me. Let me clarify that. Obviously they didn't do anything to me. Killing myself was entirely my fault, but love and compassion was the absolute LAST thing I needed to get better. Sure I ran with that too, crying and playing the victim card, but that was just to use the way I wanted for as long as I could. It wasn't until someone finally called me out on my bullshit that I began to recover. The instant I started hearing what I didn't want to hear and doing what I didn't want to do was the instant I started getting better in earnest.

     Please don't be fooled by your sweet little addict. It's all bullshit. Trust me. I used to act like I was so sad and in so much pain, and guess what? It was the act of a lifetime. I was fine! I only became hopeless after drinking and using for 15 years. But the truth is I just wanted to use as much as I wanted, uninterrupted, and I'll say anything to get what I want. That's what being an addict is. This new age nonsense of breaking the stigma, absconding responsibility, blaming the disease and putting our arms around the addict is simply causing us to smirk inside, knowing that we have, once again, successfully manipulated you.

     Fine disagree, but you can't disagree that having a nasty stigma associated with addiction certainty gives us a good reason NOT to be an addict, or rather, to go get better. Nobody wants to be that dirty addict everybody is repulsed by. Nobody wants to be that guy. So maybe the fact that we find addiction selfish and repulsive is a good thing.

     I know I do.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Privileged Addict Quotes 2

This is part two of, Privileged Addict Quotes.

"Doctors too often engage in status quo treatment, prescribing pills and therapy, but what could be more contrary to a solution for drug addicts than more drugs and more talking?"

"If calling someone when you want to drink can prevent you from drinking then celebrate because you're not an alcoholic! Alcoholics, on the other hand, have lost the power of choice."

"Like a fool, when I see my own flaws in others, I loathe it in them and excuse it in myself."

"If happiness lies in the ability to enjoy less, than being an addict is the precise opposite of such a condition."

"It's okay to suffer. It's not gonna kill you. It's called Life on Earth."

"The secret to getting better is so simple it hurts: Repeated action."

"Whether direct or indirect, service is a recipe for inner peace and outer abundance whereas selfishness is a recipe for outer failure and inner chaos."

"There is no direct avenue to worldly gain for me. There is only a by-product of gain from doing the right thing."

"Moral psychology is treating the soul through moral change. Thus, the desired effect that healing morally has on one's soul is procured through the application of moral psychology, and it is crucial to the recovery of an alcoholic or drug addict. Without moral change, we cannot heal spiritually, and if we cannot heal spiritually, we are doomed."

"Sure addiction is an illness, but it is a self-created one."

      ... Please stay tuned for the release of Privileged Addict Quotes, which will include every quote from Privileged Addict Quotes 1, 2, 3 & 4 as well as both books. 

Saturday, July 19, 2014


     I don't know if this is purely an addict reality, as I have nothing to measure it against, but I can't deny that the avenue to abundance lies in selfless action. In fact, worldly success seems directly proportional to my degree of self-preoccupation. The greatest abundance in my life has materialized when I'm focused on service and attempting to be unselfish or useful to others. For some reason, there is no direct avenue to worldly gain for me. There is only a by-product of gain from doing the right thing.

     Perhaps this is because acting unselfishly runs so contrary to my previous character, and even to my current character to a lesser extent. But regardless of the mechanism, the more I focus on spiritual growth and helping others, the more abundance comes my way and vice versa. Whether direct or indirect, service is a recipe for inner peace and outer abundance whereas selfishness is a recipe for outer failure and inner chaos.


     I suppose because addicts are the way they are. That is, because our sanity and well-being are directly tied to our moral character, it must be reciprocal. All of our success, whether spiritual, emotional, physical or financial, is directly tied to our degree of selfishness, to the tenor of our actions, to the integrity of our character, and to the accuracy of our moral compass. Granted, the absolute law of cause and effect applies to everybody, but I've certainly seen a great many non-addicts succeed based on nothing but self-will. For addicts, though, and perhaps for everybody to some degree, God doesn't reward us when we get too obsessed with ourselves.

     And why should it be otherwise?

     It makes perfect sense that the addict who has spent his or her whole life being so self-centered should have to be actively other-centered to receive worldly gifts.

     Full disclosure: I spend a great deal of time on business, research and work of all sorts... but it's not so much a question of the fact that I'm working but rather how I'm doing it. What is my mindset? Self-gain or responsibility to family, etc.? As well, how do I spend my free time? Do I sit on the couch full of want and fantasy, full of self-worship or self-pity, full of ideas and ambition about where I'm going and why I'm not there yet? Or do I leave all of the self nonsense at home and go be useful to the world, to others, and most importantly, to God?

     Fuller disclosure: I'm still plenty guilty of self-preoccupation, but when I snap out of it and the necessity of God or service comes to mind, I don't ignore it. I just do what I have to do to be okay. And in doing so, I stay healthy enough to begin suffering when I become too focused on myself. Make sense?

God, help me to care more about my spiritual growth than personal ambition, that I may accept whatever comes my way, that I may accept Your will and live in peace...

Friday, July 18, 2014

Double Standard

     "Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he." - Proverbs 29:18

     "The way to crush the bourgeoisie [middle class] is to grind them between the millstones of taxation and inflation." - Vladimir Lenin

     To note, I've been accurately accused of being somewhat cynical, so I warn you this post is a bit depressing, but I promise to cheer things up around here with slow haste.
     One reason it is so difficult and rare for addicts in America to get better is that we are a culture in decline. What was once pure fantasy is fast becoming a sort of real-life Orwellian nightmare. All empires peak and become deluded by their own power. Like ancient Rome, our hegemonic ambitions and obsessions have led us to engage in unprecedented currency debasement, deficit spending and debt accumulation, as we now borrow all of our so-called prosperity - bailouts, wars, stimulus, entitlements, social programs and government profligacy - out of the future, and more importantly, from our children who we are enslaving with a lifetime of debt servitude and a lower standard of living. Sorry, but that is a fact. Everyone screaming at each other about all the stuff they rightly deserve, well guess what... that stuff will be paid for by the labor of your children.

     At any rate, normal people don't need to exemplify moral integrity and become a pillar of virtue to stay sober, whereas addicts or alcoholics do. Sure the world would be a better place if we all lived by spiritual principles and forwent some of the elitism and stupidity to show some deference to our Lord. But the point is that normal people don't need to live morally to stay sober. Addicts do. Normal people can stay sober because they're not insane. Addicts are. Addicts, fortunately for their moms and for the rest of the world, MUST live morally in order to stay sane and sober.

     The self-delusion of drug addicts and alcoholics mirrors that of government, being convinced they should do whatever they want, even if it comes at the expense of everybody else. Both engage in Einstein's version of insanity - doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results.

    Today there is a war raging on God and spiritual principles, as the powers that be dumb down education at all levels and promote moral relativity and Godlessness. If the potus and the so-called leaders of our country engage in pathological lying and deception as if their lives depended on it, then addicts, like the rest of us, will also be infected with this degenerate philosophy of moral relativity and the idea that it's no big deal to lie and deceive and get jammed whenever we damn well please.

     Below is a must-watch Bill Moyers segment with Charles Lewis, as well as what I'm assuming is a must-read. I haven't read it yet, but will do so as soon as it comes in. And for more elaboration on our current situation, see Proverbless America on the other blog.

     "The further a society drifts from truth, the more it will hate those who speak it." - George Orwell

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Another Slogan That Contradicts Its Own Program

     "If you're gonna drink, call your sponsor..." - or something like that.

     Guess what?

     If calling somebody when you want to drink can prevent you from drinking, then celebrate because you're not an alcoholic! It is great news and you should be thrilled! Alcoholics, on the other hand, have lost the power of choice. I'm not trying to be a dick but that is how AA itself defines an alcoholic. It is the fundamental principle of AA. It is the first step of alcoholics anonymous - that we are powerless.

     Alcoholics are either totally insane and have no power of choice, or they are recovered, meaning they have the power of choice back, they have willpower. There is no in between. You're either completely okay or not at all. I suspect only recovered people who've been touched and had a psychic change will know what I mean by this. And believe me, I wish with all my heart for everybody who suffers to do the work and have this experience in order to save themselves and give peace to their families.

     At any rate, most of the people in AA today aren't actually alcoholics, meaning that they have the power of choice. They can stop drinking and stay stopped on their own willpower, and while nobody's denying they may have some kind of problem with drinking, they are not alcoholics. Alcoholics cannot stop or stay stopped on their own will. Alcoholics have lost the power of choice. You're either one way or the other.

     I can't tell you how many times I've heard people in AA say how calling their sponsor and going to meetings keeps them sober. The truth is that while they are obviously welcome to go and God bless them, none of them actually need sponsors and meetings to keep them sober because they're not alcoholics. They can exert their willpower and choose not to drink and thus, they don't really need AA at all.

     Alcoholics, on the other hand, have zero willpower. That power needs to be restored, and I can assure you that no person, phone call or meeting can perform such a task. Power, once lost, must come from its original source, which is God. Hey, don't yell at me, this is what your own program says. This shit is straight from Alcoholics Anonymous, which is the Big Book.

    So the people in AA who relapse all the time are probably the only real alcoholics in the room, given that most people in AA don't actually employ the very program they subscribe to, which would involve rigorously taking Steps and making it their lives. So if you can't stop, then why not go ahead and put God first before anything else? How can you go wrong when you stand to lose nothing and gain everything?

God, please give other addicts a glimpse of You, that they might see what they're missing...

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Don't Blame Your Genes!

    After having exhausted quite a few topics, I have to procure ideas where I can, like other blogs and articles, specifically blogs and articles that don't understand the nature of addiction. Just read some post about a doctor who essentially absconds the addict from any responsibility because "Nobody chooses their genes." And then you have another guy convinced that no child wants to be a drug addict. Um, yeah they do. Wanting to use is what made us addicts. We love to use. In fact, that's all we want to do.

     But let's focus on the doctor (one of many, I suspect) who asserts that the act of becoming a drug addict has NOTHING to do with bad choices or even so much as a crack in one's moral compass. DNA can and is to be blamed for EVERYTHING an addict does, from the very first drink, all the way down to a lifetime of broken hearts, abuse, deception, manipulation, pathological selfishness and spiritual destitution.

    Oh man, you poor parents. I can't believe that your first line of defense is going to talk to a doctor or other academic about addiction. None of them can think outside of a text book, painting this picture of addiction as some complex disease, originating in a genetic anomaly. Then you'll probably get a few nuggets about the neuroscience of addiction the intriguing notion of dual-diagnosis. The end result is you get dumbed down and infected with the clever idea that you need a myriad of treatment and pharmaceutical options from which to pawn through, trying each and every one until you've found something that will at least keep your addict zombified enough to mitigate the need to buy heroin on the street.

     There is no evidence whatsoever that you are born an addict. Have you ever seen somebody just wake up and suddenly need crack? Sorry to be facetious, but you don't just blink and suddenly you are a full-blown jam sandwich. You have to drink or use a bit before you actually break your body to that point. Yes, that is facetious, too, because you have to drink and use A TON before that happens. We put a lot of effort into becoming addicts, let me assure you.

     So the hundreds and hundreds of times I drank and used drugs before actually stepping over that line and becoming a drug addict was my DNA? My DNA was responsible for all those times? Nothing at all to do with me? Nothing at all to do with the person I am, the person I created after being born? Nothing to do with the piss poor choices and the gaping hole in my moral compass? Sorry, but you gotta be kidding me.

     I guess I shouldn't be surprised that doctors pump this stuff given they are so beholden to the Establishment. Normally I would reserve this sort of logic to addicts themselves, but for an intellectual to obfuscate and sophisticate something as much as an addict does, well, that doesn't bode well for you or your addict.

     Your genes don't make you an addict. Your genes don't pick up the bottle, swallow the pill, sniff the coke or shoot the dope. Saying that your genes are responsible for your addiction is about as much of a disservice to addicts as saying that relapse is part of recovery. That's great. Let's give addicts the only excuse they will ever need to do anything they damn well please. This is exactly the kind of thinking that will get you killed.

     Millions of people have at one time or another found themselves becoming dependent on a substance, and they, because they are not hyper-focused on self and obsessed with self-comfort, do the work that needs to be done to prevent themselves from becoming an absolute deadbeat. At some point, there is simply no excuse for an addict to continue being a addict, especially when there is a solution that can suck the mental obsession right out of you like a snake.

God, teach us to see things for what they really are...

Friday, July 4, 2014

The One Requirement to Recover

      It's really simple: You have to want God more than drugs.

     Obviously it's hard to want anything other than more dope when we roll into or out of detox, wallowing in depression and angst. That's why there are few options for the hopeless drunks and addicts out there other than to give every last ounce of spirit and courage we have within us to the Twelve Steps as they are laid out in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, thus inducing a psychic change that will shower us with immediate and profound relief.

     When you feel this kind of relief and freedom within, it is then that you will want God more than drugs. And so long as this is the case, you will remain recovered and free from any desire to drink or use. Thoughts to drink or use will have no power over you. Thoughts to self-destruct and to sabotage everything will have no power over you. You will be able to sit down with no distractions whatsoever and feel completely okay. Your mind no longer races. You are not ridden by guilt and shame. You are no longer a tortured soul. Trust me, it's awesome.

     And yes, this is all true and it happens. Everyday.

     I lay down to sleep at night and fall sound asleep in minutes, if not seconds. There are no more nightmares, no more psychic pain, no more unfinished business. This is what recovered is. Recovered is means we are free. Relapse is out of the question because the only thing recovered people care about is getting closer to God, helping others, being honest, being better, and growing spiritually (not that I do any of that well, but this is the essentially distinction between an addict lit up with the fire of God vs the mere physically sober nightmare still ripping the hearts out of those who love him, or her).

     I wish with all my heart that every addict in the world meets a recovered person and sees what I saw many years ago - a person who was glowing, grounded, sane, free, calm, wise and at peace. You can just look into the eyes of a recovered person and know they are truly okay, that any obsession to drink or use or self-destruct is just gone. I wish suffering addicts will see this and decide that they must have this thing, this peace. Finally, I wish addicts will then decide to put God first before anything, because the very instant that happens, addiction will never be a problem again, so long as we live.

Psychiatrist Defined.

     Someone close to me recently went to her shrink's office to get a prescription refill. Her shrink wasn't in so another shrink in the office sat her down, made her feel comfortable enough to open up, and then had her committed under chapter 123, section 12a of Massachusetts state law. The shrink knew nothing about the patient or her history, didn't consult anybody (such as her doctor), didn't bother to look at her chart, and seemingly acted with no actual knowledge of anything. So let's have a little fun and define psychiatrist, since we have all but sunk back into the totalitarian kleptocracy we freed ourselves from 238 years ago.

Psychiatrist /səˈkīətrist,sī-/ (noun):

1. Someone who engages in delusions of grandeur, including but not limited to self-importance, self-brilliance, and self-worship, in order to abuse power believed to be real.

2. Someone who is damaged to the point that it becomes necessary to make projection of their own character defects a full-time job.

3. A quackpot who believes that what they do, such as randomly prescribing untested science projects on human patients as if they were guinea pigs, is an actual science, means anything, has a purpose, and helps people.

4. A quackpot.

5. A narcissist.

Happy 4th!

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Watered-Down AA Fails...

     ...Because of slogans like the one I had to suffer the other night at a meeting. By the way, I never go to meetings, but I've been going to a local Big Book group to support some friends of mine in their effort. At any rate, the slogan was:

     "Just bring the body." 

     Wow. You gotta be kidding me.

     How sad it is that AA has been reduced to this. Just bring the body, but don't worry about actually doing anything, at all, ever. What a shell of its former self, as the new, easier, softer, slogan AA weakens and dilutes the original program almost into oblivion.

    If all you do is bring the body, I can promise you with near certainty that you will fail, and you will never get to experience the spiritual solution, which requires quite a bit more than bringing your body somewhere and doing absolutely nothing.

     AA is a prescription of lifelong, non-stop, rigorous spiritual action. AA is a program that turns your entire life upside down, leveling and knocking you on your ass before it builds you back up one spiritual brick at a time. I'm pretty sure just bringing the body isn't going to write a thorough and mind-bending 4th Step written inventory of your entire life, nor will it give you the power to face every single soul you have wronged and fearlessly make amends to them all. It will, however, make you eligible for story time and snack break.

    Don't take this the wrong way, but if you are an alcoholic or an addict and some airhead at a local meeting tells you to just "bring the body" and "keep comin'", don't walk but SPRINT the other way, as this advice may well end your life when the obsession to drink or use again hits you and you go on the run of a lifetime. Sponsorship, of course, has also been reduced to near oblivion.

     Physical sobriety is not sobriety, or rather, physical sobriety has virtually nothing to do with recovery. It is but a temporary state of purgatory (selfishness) between relapses. Addicts and alcoholics are insane people with a chip missing in their brains. For us to actually be safe from relapse, we must be restored to sanity, and this can only done by climbing Mount Everest, so to speak. It can only be done after painstaking work on ourselves. It can only be done when we hurl our entire lives into this Step process and want it so bad that it becomes a mathematical certainty that God will reach out and touch us and remove our obsession to use, thus restoring us to sanity.

     So unless the only thing on your mind is going to any lengths to get better and grow spiritually, then it really doesn't matter where you bring your body. Sorry to be so blunt about it, but I think it's important enough to risk sounding like a dick.

God, please remind me everyday to never just bring the body...

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Human Power

     External power (the opposite of internal or spiritual power) is simultaneously the most desired yet worst thing for human beings. The men and women with the most power in the world also have the sickest souls and must commit the gravest of sins to maintain their power, which they will only willingly cede over their dead bodies. Power is the heroin of the psychopath. Heroin is for cowards, but power is for confident, narcissistic psychopaths who worship only themselves and refuse to bow before anything, especially God.

     Physical, worldly power is the most intoxicating and seductive of drugs. The more power, the more possessed one becomes with self-worship, which is, by the way, the doctrine of satanism. So it would be fair to characterize those with the most power - the morons who run the country, the potus, the fed's member banks, the IMF, BIS, CFR, etc. as perhaps the most dangerous souls on earth. They are the greatest threat to mankind that exists, along with the ideologues and the fundamentalist psychopaths.

     The second most dangerous worldly condition is cowardice, i.e. the rest of us. The people who hold the most power only hold it because the rest of the world, the 'sheeple', empower them. The masses of cowards give those in power their power. Therefore, external power is not necessarily real, it is simply a condition or construct we invent that can vanish as quickly as a vapor will suddenly disappear. Power is not a tangible or permanent thing. It is the greatest human illusion that exists, besides fear. It is only real because we believe it to be real, and it is only obtained and maintained through the power of suggestion and the gullible masses who will believe anything.

    So please remember this when you obey, conform, follow and fear those in power, for you are simply bowing to another idiot who defecates just like you and only believes he is important in his head. We are but tiny little specs of ignorance in the scope of Creation and beyond. There is nothing to fear. If you have lost your own small bit of power, then take it back. If you know something is right in your heart but it happens to be against the laws or rules of some tyrant, take back your power and do it anyway. If you know something is wrong but it is demanded by the tyrant, refuse to do it. How ironic that intellectual dissent is now considered to be treasonous in the land of the free. We have concocted and secured loads of false human power to a handful of economically and historically illiterate narcissists and all we have to do to dissolve this structure is simply to think, speak and act for ourselves.

     We must also preserve and protect our families and the idea of family, as when families dissolve, the people lose control and that is just what those in power desire.

     I had a conversation the other day with a friend who was determined to convince me that we don't own ourselves. This sort of media-driven, collectivist propaganda is becoming mainstream today... and it is some of the most dangerous thinking known to mankind. This is when people become slaves and those in power see themselves as saviors, become somewhat genocidal and say things like, "I'm really good at killing people [with drones]." We must never drink this sort of Kool Aid and give up ourselves and our freedom in the name of this degenerate doctrine of failure, envy and entitlement. It is simply a ruse for a handful of elite to maintain power by extracting all of it from everybody else... along with your wealth, time, energy, freedom, privacy, you name it.

     And needless to say, those of us who are the most productive and work the hardest will undoubtedly be the most screwed. Fraud and failure are now rewarded while success and productivity are punished. Power is the most dangerous game there is. If you jump in, try not to immediately sell your soul to the devil, as one day you may reap what you sow when the angry masses come and rip you apart.

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