Wednesday, February 28, 2018

Anybody Can Take Steps...



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Do you know an addict or an alcoholic? Is it your son, daughter or spouse? Is it you? Or perhaps you have lost power over something else such as depression, anger, food, sex or gambling? There are few words that can describe the pain that a loss of power causes - the toll it takes on our minds, hearts and spirits, the endless ripple effects and the victims that lie in its wake. Shouldn't those we love feel the relief and the freedom that the recovered have procured for themselves? And don't we all deserve access to these powerful and life-changing tools? Anybody can lose power and therefore anybody can take steps.

Ibogaine Comment & Response (Edited)


Comment:

     Whoever wrote this is a fucking lunatic and knows nothing of plant medicine and furthermore is an AA/NA cultist

Response:

     Thanks for making my point for me... I guess. But this is not very difficult to grasp. I have nothing against Ibogaine. I've read that it can quite effectively detox opiate addicts... but that is exactly my point.

     There is detox...

     ...and then there is a lifetime of recovery.

Narcissism & Passive-Aggression


     In today's depraved and indignant culture of moral relativity, narcissism and self-centeredness have become quite pervasive. But when up is down, left is right, light is dark and right is wrong, the narcissist cannot see or understand what he or she is doing. And when the peripheral elements in their lives, which are supposed to provide some perspective and perhaps some truth, wisdom and common sense, are instead validating their narcissistic traits and impulses, they go forth blind to their behavior, to their obstinacy and arrogance, and more importantly, to the effect they have on others.

Friday, February 23, 2018

Comment Response on Dopamine & Working With Medicated Addicts (Edited)


     I'm posting this comment response because it was too long for the comment section, as I continue to get emails from the therapist contingency asking about dopamine, not to mention the recent onslaught of concocted science regarding the organic or constitutional neurochemistry of drug addicts and how drug-seeking behavior is not only rational and justified but in fact just a "sincere" and no doubt heartwarming effort to achieve normal levels of certain neurotransmitters. Excuse for a sec me while I go beat my head against a wall. Plus I just read an article in the NYT propaganda machine about some poor 6-year old child on both adderall and the anti-psychotic, risperdal. Let me tell you that our doctors and elected officials who sanction this kind of poison as well as the parents who passively follow orders without a single neuron firing (no pun intended) are nuts, or at the very least grossly misguided and negligent.

Accountability Is Freedom (Edited)


Comment:

     To me the most liberating Concept in the big book is that my troubles are of my own making. It was not fun to confront that but it was essential to free myself from my victim’s cloak. It taught me to keep my mouth shut and do nothing when something is none of my business. It taught me that I don’t always have to put my opinion out for the world’s benefit. As the other big book says, sufficient unto today are its own troubles. It reinforces my third step decision, that I am no longer in the business of management of my own life. Much less anyone elses. And guess what — my family life, my business life, my social life, all got a lot better without my micro management.

Response:

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Never Give Up. Anyone Can Recover.

    
     My loving but sad father died prematurely from early-onset dementia. To be more accurate, my Dad was an untreated, depressed alcoholic who gave up. His spiritual malady became organic and gradually his brain turned on itself and began degenerating. Once that process starts, the result is terminal. But in his death, my father teaches us drug addicts and alcoholics two invaluable lessons.

     One is human responsibility. We must never forget that nobody and nothing outside of ourselves is responsible for who we are. We bear full responsibility for taking care of ourselves, for our success and for our failure. We mold ourselves into men and women or moral character and strength or into Godless dens of iniquity and wilting leaves of cowardice. The choice is most certainly ours to make.

The Ability to Enjoy Less...


     "The secret of happiness, you see, is not found in seeking more, but in developing the capacity to enjoy less." - Socrates

     "The more you eat, the less flavor; the less you eat, the more flavor." - Chinese proverb

     If happiness lies in the ability to enjoy less, than being an addict is the precise opposite of such a condition. So when we get better, we develop the ability to enjoy less. The more we simplify, the greater the pleasure in simple things.

     I used to need about five OC 80s, a bag of heroin, a pile of coke, two packs of butts, greasy food, sex, tv, and countless other distractions of the lowest possible quality just to feel moderately okay and make it through the day. That is pathetic. It is sin.

Moral Psychology & Its Absence In Psychotherapy Today


     "We doctors have realized for a long time (not anymore, mind you) that some form of moral psychology was of urgent importance to alcoholics, but its application presented difficulties beyond our conception (um, yeah, pills can't change people into better people)." - Alcoholics Anonymous, xxvii

     What is moral psychology? And why is it absent in psychotherapy today?

     Moral psychology is treating the soul through moral change or moral action. Thus, the desired effect that healing morally has on one's soul is procured through the application of moral psychology, and it is crucial to the recovery of an alcoholic or drug addict. Without moral change, we cannot heal spiritually, and if we cannot heal spiritually, we are doomed.

Monday, February 19, 2018

"Can the Brain Heal Itself From Prolonged Pot Use?"


Comment:

     Charlie, this is a really good post. Thank you for having the guts to say things as they really are. It's so refreshing to hear someone talk like this, with zero fear of being politically incorrect.

     I have a question for you, please and thank you: Do you think that if someone has smoked pot for a really long time (say 30 years), that is has done irreversible damage to their brain? Or can the brain heal itself from even that long a period of abuse? 

Saturday, February 17, 2018

"How Does One Get Through the Mental Obsession?"


Comment:

     This is really great stuff...but how does one get through the mental obsession? Is it best to just 'watch' the thoughts and recognize the addictive voice and let it pass? I would love to hear any solutions you have tried or know of...thanks.

Nothing Gets Done Without Action


"Action is the only truth." 
- Marcus Aurelius. 

     Who we are and what we become is not defined or solidified by personal philosophy, academic knowledge, words, thoughts and beliefs. Character is purely a function of what we do and the purpose behind what we do. For addicts, and I suppose everybody else as well, we are only so much as we act. We can talk a good game, we can recite glorious platitudes, we can muse and contemplate, we can attend speeches of new-age faux gurus, we can become a walking self-help book and go to endless therapy sessions, we can whine, rant and shout, we can absorb so-called knowledge or propaganda from some loony professor, we can feed the ego in a tangled myriad of vaporous ways... and guess what? 

     Not only will none of it change who you are, but none of it will define you. We can only define people by what they actually do. Action is the only truth because it is the only process that ignites and effects real change and molds us into something solid and consistent. Nothing can truly be accomplished without action. This is not only true with recovery but all of life. You cannot acquire a skill set without ever doing it, and doing it repeatedly. You cannot live a life of service if you never actually go serve and help others. You cannot undo addiction simply by learning about it or acquiring self-knowledge. Addiction must be manually extracted, if you will. In other words, if addiction is acquired by way of a series of selfish actions, there is no ridding oneself of it without a series of selfless actions.

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

"My Son's Therapist Told Him He Shouldn't Be Working" Seriously? Does He Need A Blanky, Too?


Comment:

     I remember when my son's therapist at his first rehab told me that he should not be working and he needed to focus totally on his recovery. My response was, well that would be nice, but it's not an option, I cannot afford to support an adult child. My son even disagreed with the counselor telling him that idle time was his worst enemy. So many people I know with addicted adult children bear the financial burden of taking care of them for years...... I just don't see how staying home, sleeping late and doing NOTHING all day helps them recover. Then there are the 90 day rehabs then onto a sober living home for a year or more. I could not do that for my son, I did not have the financial means. Maybe I am crazy but I wanted him working. When crises happen in my life and there is addict drama and I am having a meltdown it isn't an option to leave my job to "recover".

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Recovery = Dealing With Your Shit

"Escaping consequence is no privilege or blessing."

"Sorry Mom, sorry Dad, I have a disease!"

     The above caption is just one of an infinite number of excuses, none of which, like so-called "triggers," have anything to do with reality. Asserting that your "disease" made you steal your grandmother's Oxycontin is the same thing as saying a cardboard box triggered you to go drink. See "Excuses of an Addict" for a good laugh.

     That said, to go from a physically sober nightmare to a recovered person, the addict must, to put it lightly, deal with their shit. The physically sober addict is not only a child, but is also a ticking time bomb. He or she is filled to the brim with emotional and spiritual poison, having racked up a lifetime of resentment, fear and sexual misconduct. As well, patterns and behaviors such as dishonesty, manipulation and selfishness that destroy relationships and tear hearts apart have essentially become hard-wired in the addict or alcoholic.

Monday, February 12, 2018

Relapse Is NOT Part of Recovery


     The cliche' goes, "Relapse is part of recovery."

     This sort of waiting room wisdom is exactly the kind of nonsense I had to toss out of the window in order to recover from addiction. Adopting this type of attitude, accepting relapse, and letting yourself off the hook is a recipe for death. One obvious reason why such a platitude is so harmful is because addicts LOVE this slogan. Dead giveaway. They love knowing that relapse is part of their recovery, that they can always get jammed if need be. Ridiculous. What a deranged avenue for addicts to rationalize using.

Being a Drug Addict Has Nothing to Do with Morals? Hahaha

 Right, and I have a bridge I'd like to sell you in California. 



Comment:

     charlie i agree with you. it has been my experience in watching my son for the last 10 years. it's sad but true. but read this piece of literature that is read at ea[ch] and every Families Anonymous program. I love the program and it has saved my sanity but they clearly state that drug abuse is not a moral issue.

Friday, February 9, 2018

We Are Not Victims


     Being an addict is not an excuse to continue being an addict. Despite the insufferable "fight the stigma" PC nonsense you hear 24/7, we are not victims. It shouldn't come as a surprise to anybody that addicts turn themselves into addicts and NOTHING is to blame for that but ourselves. More than anything, our parents and those who love us, of course, as well as our genes, have zero culpability in us drinking or using drugs to the point of addiction, and then maintaining our addiction year after year. I have a question for the victim peddlers...

     What exactly are we victims of? Addiction? What, did addiction just fly through the air and infect us? Is addiction some intangible evil force that chose to possess us? Uh, no. Did we not ourselves drink and use drugs over and over and over and over again until we literally broke our bodies and minds and souls? Yup.

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Move Slowly, But Do Not Recovery Slowly (Edited)


      Guess what happens when I speed up, rush around, multi-task, or simply fail to stop throughout the day to breathe and remove the endless distractions, both internal or external? It doesn't take long before I succumb to frustration, angst and misery. I lose my peace, my serenity, and whatever joy I may have felt upon waking up. Not being fully present and deliberate in both mind and body is a torturous way to move through life. Same with living in the past or the future, neither of which exist.

Monday, February 5, 2018

Recovery Is Not a Theory (Edited)


Read this.

    Everything I know about how I became recovered from drug and alcohol addiction - as well as depression, mania, fear, anxiety, boredom, angst and so forth - boils down to this:


     Nothing happens without ACTION.

     You can learn everything humanly possible about addiction and it won't change you at all. You can discover every psychological insight about yourself and again, it won't change anything. You can be loved by others and it won't change anything. You can get the best treatment and all the latest and greatest cutting edge meds and it won't change anything. You can go on methadone or suboxone and it won't change anything. There is no knowledge, no belief, no relationship, no group, no meeting, no doctor, no shrink, no pill and no science project that can turn an active addict into a recovered addict. Only the addict himself can change, with the help of God. He or she must actually get up off of the couch and work hard. Laziness breeds cowardice and cowardice breeds addiction and failure and death. The AA slogan "Just sit down, shut up, and wait for a miracle to happen" is truly one of the most asinine, let alone lethal, of them all.

How to Cripple an Addict (Edited)


"Life begins at the end of your comfort zone." -Neale Donald Walsch

     There is a solution... it's just that most addicts don't want to do any work, and there is no solution without work. Sadly, as a society, we are becoming programmed to reward and even glorify failure and dependency while demonizing hard work, success, independence and free thought/speech.

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      When you ply an addict with more drugs, when you validate an addict in therapy, and when you subsidize an addict with government programs (aka the money you work so hard for), you are essentially telling them that they are too weak, sick and stupid to truly get better and recover, and to make things worse, you are doing it under the guise of compassion, under the guise of science and the disease model.

Why Service Works

     So below in italics is an older post, but it is sort of a follow-up to the previous one about addiction and the victim model. More ...