I am a living, breathing, insatiable dumpster - a full blown alcoholic/drug addict. Perhaps the only thing I really know is what it's like to be absolutely powerless.
But that doesn't mean we can't regain power.
In fact, I am recovered and will never use again. I now reject and repel
all drugs and alcohol as a form of spiritual poison. Until I breathe my
last breath, nothing will ever be more important to me than my relationship
So the only question is, is our program capable of giving us our power back, or is it just a phony band-aid?
That is a question we need to search for in the deepest parts of our minds, hearts and souls. We must be rigorously honest when looking at ourselves and our program.
We have spent so many years bullshitting other people, the very last thing we want to do is to bullshit ourselves in recovery.
God, please remove any obsession I may have to self-destruct or to sabotage all that is good...