Monday, August 18, 2014
Ingrate Resentment Inventory
"God, help me to see those things that block me from You and Others."
1st Column (who?)
2nd Column (what?)
a. They're ungrateful. And entitled.
3rd Column (Affects my...?)
Affects my: P/A (Pride/Ambition) SE (Self-esteem) P/SR (Personal or Sexual Relations)
4th Column (How was I...?)
Self-Seeking: I want to be seen as a shining example of tolerance and humility [which I'm not].
Selfish: I want others to think the way I think and be the way I am.
Dishonest: I am without question an ingrate, especially when I was an active addict, and resenting this in others not only reflects it in myself but helps me to avoid taking responsibility for my own lack of gratitude.
Fear: I'm afraid to love others, to love myself.
"My Creator, I am now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad. I pray that you now remove every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to You and my fellows. Grant me strength, as I go out from here, to do Your bidding. Amen." - 7th Step Prayer from Alcoholics Anonymous, p.76