If you are recovered, you don't want to use anymore.
If you are recovering, you still want to use.
If you are recovered, you no longer suffer from thoughts to use.
If you are recovering, you still suffer from thoughts to use.
So if you still want to drink or use, have thoughts about drinking or using, or still suffer quite a bit, then (no offense) there is something wrong with your program.
Our program should be good enough to not only eliminate all desire and thoughts to drink or use, but to provide at least moderate peace, contentment and happiness. If it does not accomplish these things, then it is no program at all. We are not okay if we still want to drink or use, or if we still think about drinking or using.
The only option is to become recovered. We owe it to ourselves, and more importantly, to our parents, spouses, families, friends... and the rest of the world. So if our program isn't working, we may have to turn to something much greater.
God, please restore me to sanity...