Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Addiction is a Spiritual Problem

     Addiction is a spiritual problem.

     Yes, I understand there is a physical and mental component, but those components manifest themselves after we have become spiritually ill. Addiction is a symptom of spiritual illness. That is the truth, regardless of what anyone may say.

     Before going on to the solution, I feel that it's imperative to explain the mental component better to help non-addicts truly understand what it's like to be an addict. The mental problem we have is why once we get sober, we cannot stay that way. People have to understand that there is nothing that can stop us from using once that switch goes off in our heads, even if we've been sober for months and months at a time. Perhaps a brief anecdote may help to describe the curious phenomenon of having a broken mind, if you will.

     Years ago, while working in Boston, I had finally kicked OxyContin and heroin. I withdrew any and all substances from my body and was totally clean and sober. About five days later, as I began to feel better and better, I remember having a conversation with myself as I drove home from work. I was done. I knew it. I went over my entire life and came to grips with all of the tragedy, loss and heartache my addiction had caused myself and everyone around me. I felt strong and confident. I wanted a better life. I committed to myself that I was never going back. I was done for good.

     Then the phone rang.

     It was my one of my dealers. This you must understand: As soon as the phone rang, for all intents and purposes, the car drove itself off of Storrow Drive and straight to my dealers house. I didn't even think for a second. I couldn't. Why? Because it was just a reflex at that point. I saw my caller ID and the entire 20-minute conversation I just had with myself vanished into thin air and I ripped the steering wheel around and sped to his house without a single thought entering my head (except what's the quickest route). That, my friends, is the 'mental obsession'. We have no defense against it. Trust me, no doctor, pill, therapy session, call from a sponsor or relapse prevention program can do anything at all once an obsession of that sort manifests itself in our minds. That is a type of insanity that cannot be fought and conquered by any human force. We are completely, utterly defenseless. And that is addiction. That is why we can't stay sober.

     So what is the solution?

     If our problem is spiritual than so must be our solution.

     The solution is spiritual action, or practically speaking, SERVICE. The very moment we become other-centered is the very moment we will begin to change and recover permanently (mentally, not physically, as we will never be safe from actually drinking or using drugs of any sort. Our bodies are permanently damaged). But the secret to addiction is service, which is why the entire Western medical community has no clue how to treat it. They try and they try but they just can't seem to crack it. Plus there's no financial incentive in telling drug addicts to simply go give of themselves to others. But if we really want to get better and truly change, we have to serve others instead of ourselves. Service is the SILVER BULLET. Best thing for addicts, by far.

     And why does spiritual action and service work? Because with each right action, we are brought closer to GOD. And GOD, of course, can heal anybody of anything.

4 comments:

  1. thank you for sharing your experience it gives me insight to perhaps what my AS son may experience ''mental obsession'' but permanately damaged?

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    1. I read your earlier post. Are you saying that if a person is addicted to say Cocaine - he has to stay away from all substances - he cannot even have a beer - even though that person never had a problem with alcohol? Its a tough cross to carry - if even a glass of wine can send you down the slippery slope or a blown relapse?

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  2. Amazing post, Thanks Charlie.

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  3. I just found your blog last week...my daughter is 21 been an addict since 2008 beautiful smart cheerleader she was suppposed to go to mass pharmacy and health science collegein Boston. ...fast forward to now she has prostituted herself worked in strip clubs, lives in out motels, shelters, stays with any guy she meets...wanders streets of Holyoke ma....I brought her to detox 6 times since september have sectioned 35 sectioned 12 befire that...its heart breaking...I dont know what to do I see her once a week let her know I love her and see what her "plan" is..but anyways I can go on and on but ill spare you...I love reading your blog and love your attitude on your recocery...

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