AA Has Lost Its Way

     I don't go to meetings anymore.

     One of the reasons is the guy who came up to me in the gym today and told me that I need to go to more meetings, that I'm not gonna make it, and that I must not be an addict if I don't need meetings to be okay. If he had actually done some work on himself and taken Steps, he might have refrained from taking my inventory. To state the obvious, meetings don't get people better. Right action does. I should have told him 1) "Gee, if after 8 years of 'recovery' I still needed meetings everyday than there is definitely something wrong with my program..." and 2) "If I follow your advice and go to meetings all day, then, yup, I'm 100% NOT PRESENT for my family." Sorry, but I got better to take care of the people I love and to live the life I was supposed to live.

     Most people in and out of AA think that the program of AA is going to meetings, though nothing could be further from the truth. In fact, when people ask me if I'm in AA, they ask me if I go to meetings and how many I go to, to which I reply, "None." Then they freak out and tell me I'm going to relapse soon. I have been a recovered alcoholic and drug addict for almost 8 years and I am completely okay. They say, "Well then, what do you do?" to which I reply, "I take Steps." I should also mention (in an effort to dispel all of the dual-diagnosis nonsense, or perhaps hoax is a better word) that I'm totally unmedicated... and I've never been more balanced and successful in my entire life. Right action and GOD got me better and fixed my broken mind, not some insane cocktail of brain-damaging and soul-crushing psychotropics.

     Searching other blogs one day, I came across stories of people who have left AA... and I must say that I don't blame them. They described and summarized meetings much the way I do, but worse. Several of these stories were from women who attended 'Young Persons' meetings and saw nothing but disgusting, loser, 50+ year-old men who were in there to stare at and stalk young, vulnerable women. I have seen this myself in 'YP' AA meetings in the Boston area. I have also seen dogma, status, anger, insanity, sickness, rampant untreated alcoholism, and Holier Than Thou nonsense. Yes, AA has most certainly lost its way.

     But we must distinguish between this sick, watered-down AA and the original Twelve Step program, which was nothing more than a spiritual set of actions. The original Twelve Steps teach us to become better people. They teach us to become more honest, loving, selfless and courageous. AA was never intended to devolve into a slew of sick meetings, where the trash and filth of the earth prey on young people, or where some speaker preaches the Steps but is completely nuts.

     I'm sure Bill Wilson and Bob Smith are rolling in their graves. When did it become okay for dry drunks to run groups, repeatedly give advice that contradicts fundamental principles of AA, abuse false power, hand out sobriety chips and instant coffee, and incessantly tell their self-aggrandizing war stories, and worse yet, their sob stories? Countless numbers spit out AA slogans and yet, you wouldn't follow some of these folks around if there was a gun to your head, let alone cop a ride home with one of them all alone. 

     So does AA need to reassess? Absolutely. AA is getting a bad rap for being a cultish group of nutjobs and moral degenerates who don't do any real work on themselves and 13 Step young girls. I will, for now, do what I can by teaching others what AA actually is/was (see links on blog), what the Twelve Steps actually are, and how this once mystical and miraculous spiritual program has gone astray.

God, please guide AA back to its original, spiritual, moral, action-oriented self...