"There is no such thing as making a normal drinker out of an alcoholic. Science may one day accomplish this, but it hasn't done so yet." -Alcoholics Anonymous, p.31
Translation: Physically, we are screwed. Oh, and science still hasn't done so... but even if it did someday, I would refuse such a procedure with a resolve as strong as gold. I think I'll take the incredible and mystical life that I have now as opposed to muddling through as a mundane zombie, locked inside my small, narrow, 3-dimensional world.
You can turn a non-addict into an addict, but there is no turning an addict back into a non-addict. We have an 'allergy' to drugs and alcohol that we will die with. It doesn't matter if we are sober for half a century. Give us a drink and we will react physically as does any chronic alcoholic. It won't be long until we are falling down drunk 24/7 and back in detox. This is what both addicts and families MUST understand. Our bodies NEVER recover. We will never drink normally once we break our bodies. And there is nothing on this earth that can change us back into a normal drinker. Nothing. No person, no pill, no book, not even a profound spiritual experience. Bottom line: We will die with the body of an addict.
What we can do away with is the insanity that makes us drink despite knowing that we respond abnormally. We can recover from the mental obsession - thoughts to drink or use that do not respond to ration or reason. Knowing that we are abnormal and yet continuing to drink is surely a form of insanity. We somehow think that it won't be the same this time around. We have a very special form of lunacy where we somehow forget who we are and how we react once the thought to drink saturates our minds. Our entire history of chaos and disaster just disappears from our consciousness. And even if our history is not lost on us, it certainly doesn't have much weight when compared to our new idea to start drinking again, because this time we can control it! Like when I told myself that I didn't really have a problem with OxyContin because I bought a few 80s and cut them up into little pieces for each day of the week to be controlled and moderate... um, until three o'clock in the morning when I had plucked them all from their hiding spaces, crushed 'em up and inhaled them like a pig.
So an active addict is broken both physically and mentally. He will NEVER recover physically and thus can never drink or use again. If he does, he will have an allergic reaction and will break out into more and more. His only choice is lifelong abstinence. However, if we have an entire psychic change, then we will never have to worry about drinking or using ever again because any thought to do so will have ZERO power over us. We will always be free from drugs and alcohol so long as we maintain our spiritual health through right action. Small price to pay, if you ask me.
To note, that doesn't mean we need to beat ourselves up 24/7. On the contrary, we need to rid ourselves of guilt and self-pity, as that is selfish and prevents us from being useful to others. Achieving recovery and health is about balance - sometimes we help ourselves, sometimes we help others, sometimes we focus on our families, sometimes we focus on our jobs, and sometimes we just relax and go have some fun.
God, teach me what I can do and what I can't do...