Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Don't Care How You Feel

     Charlie, we really don't care how you feel. Getting better has nothing to do with feelings. It's all action...

     This is by far the most helpful thing anybody has ever said to me. Most of the time, when I start working with an addict, they go on endless rants about how they feel - Yeah but this, yeah but that... It's always that somehow their addiction makes sense because of how they feel. And the best is that I don't understand. I don't understand that they feel so screwed over by someone, so unheard, so misunderstood, so alone, so weak, so useless, so disable, so depressed, so not living up to their potential, so blah, blah, blah. Um, yeah, I get it. I whined too about how nobody understands. I justified using drugs like a pig because of the way I felt.

     "Well, you would be drinking and sniffing heroin too if you knew what I was going through!"

     Bullshit.

     This is why therapy is such a joke. Addicts who I sponsor say, "Yeah the Steps are great but I also want to dig into my stuff, my feelings. You need to know how I feel, man."

     No, I don't.

     And fine, call me a sociopath but I really don't care. I also don't care what you believe. All I care about is what you do. What actions are you going to take? Bottom line: Getting better truly has nothing to do with our feelings. In fact, our feelings quite often prevent us from getting better. The most important thing any addict wanting to get better can do is to drop his preoccupation with self. Stop focusing on how you feel because the truth is it doesn't matter and nobody cares anyway. We need to walk through our feelings without broadcasting them on the nightly news. 

    Getting better has nothing to do with feelings. It has everything to do with action. CBT has it completely backwards. Addicts and alcoholics are so fucked in the head, we can't think our way into right action. We need to just shut up and start acting our way into right thinking...

See Also: Don't Care What You Believe

God, give me the power, strength and willingness not to let my feelings stop me...

1 comment:

  1. This is such an insightful post. Our focus on the self is so toxic and pervasive. Addict or non-addict, it causes malady in our lives, our relationships our society. You have hit the nail on the head.

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