April 24, 2014
This is perhaps the single most important thing for addicts to understand if we truly want to recover and conquer ALL of our demons, not simply drug and alcohol addiction.
It was by doing the very things I didn't want to do that fixed me and made me stronger. Doing the very things that scared me and made me uncomfortable, insecure and self-conscious is what repaired my mind and soul, enabling me to go from recovering to recovered. Making a tough amends, running a group or public speaking are good examples.
At times we all feel like isolating, shutting off, going inward and avoiding people, places and things that push us out of our comfort zone. But this is exactly why the most important part of the Step process is to go work with other people. When we get up and force ourselves to sit with another addict who is suffering, it thrusts us out of isolation and lifts us up inside. It shifts our direction from the small and narrow world of self-focus to the colorful and limitless world of service. Giving, sharing and being with others is perhaps the greatest contributor to personal strength, and adds the most to our reservoir of relief and freedom.
Do yourself a favor and step outside of your comfort zone, something many programs, doctors and counselors in the addiction world don't stress or recommend for some reason. But the truth is that it's often the things that scare us the most which are also the most healing for us and for those in our lives. So don't isolate, but rather, do the opposite.
God, please give me the power and willingness to walk through fear, pain and discomfort...