Monday, December 2, 2019

Anybody Can Take Steps - Chapter Three



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STEP 3
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

    
     Sounds great, but how exactly do I turn myself over to God? What does that even mean? For now, let us consider this Step to be a vow – a promise to ourselves, to others and to our Higher Power to grow along spiritual lines and to repel anything that prevents us from doing so. On a practical level, we are vowing to cultivate and expand our conscience, and then never to ignore it. As well, we are not going to consciously erect any walls between us and our mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health.

Accountability Is Freedom


Comment:

     To me the most liberating Concept in the big book is that my troubles are of my own making. It was not fun to confront that but it was essential to free myself from my victim’s cloak. It taught me to keep my mouth shut and do nothing when something is none of my business. It taught me that I don’t always have to put my opinion out for the world’s benefit. As the other big book says, sufficient unto today are its own troubles. It reinforces my third step decision, that I am no longer in the business of management of my own life. Much less anyone elses. And guess what — my family life, my business life, my social life, all got a lot better without my micro management.

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Wednesday, November 20, 2019

Removing Morality from Addiction Is Both Ignorant and Dangerous


   
     Above are memes that a buddy of mine posted on FB and they reflect the complete idiocy of states run by the left, including my home state of Massachusetts, which increasingly loses its mind as it continues to be run/ruined by political whores and thieves. They also reflect the fact that we now have to create humorous memes to get the truth out there since all the media puppets do now is lie and spread propaganda. Sad that our ceaseless decline into a culture of depravity has even infected something as serious as addiction. If there is one group that absolutely must take responsibility for their behavior, it is drug addicts and alcoholics. For one, there is no hope of recovery if they do not. Second, the ignorant notion that we are blameless victims reflects the same sick frame of mind that both perpetuates our mental/spiritual sickness as well as prevents us from becoming sane again. In order to validate the whole "I have a disease and it is not a choice and I did not choose to relapse and I was triggered by this or that and blah, blah, blah..." bullshit, we must at the same time remove any moral component. If nothing is our fault, then there is nothing immoral about it. As well, since I can simply justify and rationalize my continuous misery and relapse with the progressive disease model, I never have to get better. How convenient.

Friday, November 15, 2019

Comment Response on the Effects of Pot


Comment:

     Yes, I have found as a spouse of an addict that self-care is absolutely crucial to survival. You are so right that is is not selfish, but actually necessary to be able to have something to give to others.

     Out of curiosity, do you think that pot has a similar effect on the emotions as alcohol, or are the two different?

Response:

      They are different chemically but act on the same reward system of the brain and as such, have a similar effect. I get this all the time, that smoking pot is totally fine. I even get it from parents who want to convince themselves that their child is okay because they're just smoking pot now and it's not addictive.

The Gospel of Envy


     By the way, I have a friend on just about every entitlement there is, and she often lashes out and complains about wait times and not getting checks and what assholes they are. Lol, wow. You see, this is the problem with career entitlements and socialism - you become entitled. When you should have gratitude the most, you have none. Why? Because you are just existing. If you're getting free help (free meaning taken from someone else), at the very least you should be thankful. Give a man a fish and he eats for a day and then comes back tomorrow expecting more, having done nothing to advance himself as his spirit, self-esteem and self-respect decays. Teach a man to fish and he eats for the rest of his life with dignity. He can also teach others to fish. He has a purpose.

     Here is a good anecdote I read on Martin Armstrong's blog about the difference between capitalism and socialism:

     "Martin, A story I received: A guy looked at my Porsche the other day and said I wonder how many people could have been fed for the money that sports car cost! [ugh, people like this are insufferable] I replied I am not sure, it fed a lot of families in Bowling Green, Kentucky who built it, it fed the people who make the tires, it fed the people who made the components that went into it, it fed the people in the copper mine who mined the copper for the wires, it fed people in Decatur IL, at Caterpillar who make the trucks that haul the copper ore. It fed the trucking people who hauled it from the plant to the dealer and fed the people working at the dealership and their families. BUT,… I have to admit, I guess I really don’t know how many people it fed."

Wednesday, November 13, 2019

If It's Not Difficult & Uncomfortable, It's Useless


*This is an old draft I never published...
     
     As we become increasingly inundated with wordly life and the reality of responsible adulthood, we begin to realize that addicts and self-help gurus alike who don't ever leave the cushy spiritual retreat centers are missing quite a few 'muscle' stones in their foundation. It's easy to be calm and at peace when all you do is hang out at an oceanfront retreat sweeping leaves and writing books on how messed up everybody is. It's easy to stay in the womb-like bubble of the treatment center with endless service opportunities at your fingertips to lift you up, all while worldly clamors are essentially absent. The bubble of isolation leads to idealism and false knowledge, and thus to a flimsy foundation. After a certain amount of time, remaining in retreat mode year after year can become a crutch. I am guilty of multiple crutches, too, so no need to get trigger-happy with the keyboard. Feel free, however, to bash away as I believe in free speech with every cell in my body, unlike the SJW/ PC tyrants of today.

Sunday, November 10, 2019

Willingness to Be Uncomfortable = Drug Problem Gone


     To be an alcoholic or a drug addict is not a complicated thing to understand, despite our efforts to complicate just about everything, especially something that seems so mind-boggling. But it's pretty simple. Junkies are entitled, blame everybody and everything else but themselves, and desire to maintain maximum comfort 24/7 with the least amount of effort possible and the least amount of gratitude possible, similar to a child or millenial (or liberal socialist). Of course, we're then faced with the unfortunate (or perhaps fortunate) reality that perpetual comfort is not real life. So if we can simply become willing to be uncomfortable, we can choose to give up the right we falsely believe we have to drink or use drugs. We can shed the ignorance of childhood and come to understand that life is uncomfortable at times and shouldn't preclude us from working hard and taking responsibility for ourselves. Recovery, therefore, whether from addiction or some adolescent ideology, simply revolves around growing up and the development of one's conscience.

If You Want it Sugar-Coated, I Can't Help You


Comment:

     Charlie, I've just recently started reading your blog, and I have to say, if this isn't one of the most important blogsites on the internet, I don't know what is!! I am so glad you have the freedom to take the gloves off here, and say things that have previously been unaddressed in 'recovery circles', and, for a variety of other unacceptable reasons, are left unresolved. I am committed to doing whatever it takes to invite those who need it most, to come and benefit from your powerful and compelling story, and your accompanying recovery dialogue.

     Granted, this is pretty graphic and brutal stuff, but you know what? It's exactly what some of us need to escape the grasp of addiction. I don't think one of us ever thought about the consequences of our behaviors. If we did, it was never at this level. If this information doesn't shake us, rock our world, and motivate one so affected to change, or at least to seek out the resources for treatment, you might be dealing with something far deeper, like ASPD.

Wednesday, November 6, 2019

Celebrating Recovery Is the Opposite of Recovery


Will common sense ever begin to permeate the delusional status quo?

     My incredible girlfriend often texts me various forms of inspiration to get me to write. One of her favorite sources is the addict's diary (which is, to put it lightly, brutal), as she has a plethora of asinine FB posts at her fingertips. I'm not sure if it's the poor quality of the writing, the infantile attention-seeking or the new-age idiocy, but regardless, I used to act like a loud, cocky, smug, liberal intellectual and it is not only a mental disorder but it is truly nauseating. Getting off on attention and self-seeking this way is exactly the sort of hubris that brings addicts down.

     Anyway, she just sent me this post of a pic of one his followers holding a piece of cardboard that asks for Facebook “likes” and “shares” for “celebrating two years of continuous recovery.”

     First of all, “Continuous recovery?” LOL. What other kind is there? This phrase is so stupid it hurts.

Thursday, October 31, 2019

Addiction Neuroscientists Should Talk to Some Moms


     *This is an older piece but I'm reposting it while I write a few new blogs on how dangerous it is to ignore the moral component of addiction and how the disease model has become a religion of degeneracy. I'm also trying to move away from full time real estate and construction so I can write a new book for parents and spouses about how us becoming addicts is not your fault whatsoever. There is nothing external that can be blamed for who we are and what we do. Any and all external "causes" of addiction are myths, including genetics and other ridiculous notions such as addiction being some evil entity that we caught in the air, or waking up one day and suddenly having a brain disease. We are not born addicts. We voluntarily turn ourselves into them. And there are no such things as "triggers." That one just makes me laugh. Any addicted person can recover permanently, become free and never again struggle so long as they remove their actual condition, which is insanity, which is achieved through total accountability and spiritual help. Therefore, relapse is NOT part of recovery. That is a marketing slogan designed by treatment centers and peddled by clueless addiction "specialists." Relapse, needless to say, has nothing to do with recovery. More to come...

Wednesday, October 30, 2019

Comment Responses on Depression & Addiction


     I posted the above meme a while back on the FB page, which, needless to say, triggered a few of the more sensitive crowd. To note, the sensitives are generally miserable, still drink and use, and indulge in lavish excuses and justifications as to why they use, why it's not their fault (of course) and why they have no choice. Right, sure, sign me up. Sensitives also despise when anyone challenges their delusional excuses. Sensitives are generally young, immature, clueless, progressive, and want everything for free (i.e. taken from others and given to them). They generally believe that nothing is their fault, everything is unjust, and all who disagree with them are evil. For all intents and purposes, they have been brainwashed.

     Here is one by Kristie: "I disagree. I have seen many people turn to addiction especially uppers as a way to function when their depression is bad."

     And another by her cheerleader, Erin: "Bullshit!!! Depression does INDEED cause addiction!!!!"

     Finally, you have Kimberly, who is very concise, thoughtful and eloquent with her thoughts: "BULLSHIT"

     Lol. 

Thursday, June 20, 2019

To Recover Is To Grow Up & Restore Our Conscience


     We speak of fundamental change for the addict who seeks to get better. The Big Book refers to this as an "entire psychic change," and Jung further describes this sudden change by stating, "Here and there, once in a while, alcoholics have what are called vital spiritual experiences. To me these occurrences are phenomena. They appear to be in the nature of huge emotional displacements and rearrangements. Ideas, emotions, and attitudes that were once guiding forces of the lives of these men are suddenly cast to one side, and a completely new set of conceptions begin to dominate them." (Alcoholics Anonymous) As well, Williams James provides several accounts of significant and sudden conversions in "Varieties of Religious Experience."

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Victimhood & Special Treatment


     This may be a bit over the heads of some recent critics who caste me as hateful and offensive (lol), but the entire modern liberal attitude towards addiction and the disease model is actually harmful to addicts, not helpful.

Tuesday, June 18, 2019

Progressives are Killing Recovery


   Had another standard discussion with an MD recently, and though we shared some common experience, our paths diverged on the nature of addiction and the dynamics of recovery. A very nice guy, by the way, so to be clear, our divergence was contained, I think, to medicine, God and addiction.

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

The Ability to Enjoy Less


     "The secret of happiness, you see, is not found in seeking more, but in developing the capacity to enjoy less." - Socrates

     "The more you eat, the less flavor; the less you eat, the more flavor." - Chinese proverb

     If happiness lies in the ability to enjoy less, than being an addict is the precise opposite of such a condition. So when we get better, we develop the ability to enjoy less. The more we simplify, the greater the pleasure in simple things.

     I used to need about five OC 80s, a bag of heroin, a pile of coke, two packs of butts, greasy food, sex, tv, and countless other distractions of the lowest possible quality just to feel moderately okay and make it through the day. That is pathetic. It is sin. I've been reading quite a bit of nonsense about how becoming an addict is beyond our control. Sure addiction is an illness or malady rather, but it is a self-created one. Acting like a needy, whiny victim is not an illness beyond our control. It is what we do to desperately maintain our addiction after we've turned ourselves into addicts.

     When we get better, we begin to find pleasure in less. We lower the bar, but in a good way. After years of removing drugs and distraction and selfish behavior, we begin to enjoy simple pleasures we once took for granted, all those things we whined and moaned about in a fit of entitlement. Active addicts and alcoholics are like spoiled children, crying and screaming when we can't eat candy all day long.

     Getting better is not just the process of growing up, but also one of removal and simplification. By removing things, we come to appreciate them more. Less becomes more. I personally find considerable pleasure from almost nothing: a glass of cold water, a hot shower, watching my son or daughter laugh or dance or play, lying down in bed after a long day, looking at the yard after landscaping or some floor after tiling or some bathroom or kitchen after renovating, completing some creative project, swimming in the ocean, closing my eyes and breathing, being still, playing tennis, working out, walking around on a warm, dry day and feeling the breeze on my face.

     Earlier today, I sat down on an old beach chair while my son played with sand and a great calm washed over me. I can't explain it with any specificity or eloquence other than to say that I felt completely happy in that moment. Not a single thought or worry poisoned my mind. Not a shred of discontent could I find anywhere within. Sure it was only momentary, but I would never be able to bask in those simplest of things as an active addict. All addicts do is want, want, want and need, need, need. Nothing is ever enough. Not only is this a miserable way to move through life and navigate this world, but it also acts as a repellent to others. "Rather unbecoming" as my old man used to say with his jaw locked up good and tight.

     To enjoy less, we must never stop getting better. Go write down all the ways you behave as an addict and the way you were as an addict, and do the exact opposite, everyday, for the rest of your life. Nobody's a saint, so all we have to do is our best. But that is how we get better... by acting like a normal person and developing the ability to enjoy less.

God, empty me out that I may bask in the simplest of things... teach me to simply be...

Anybody Can Take Steps - Chapter Three

* STEP 3 Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.           Soun...